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Each man kills what he loves  But my hope will never die Sometimes, I wonder If our parents raised us too well Having to be nice when things don't sit well Making room when I've had enough Even for people clamouring for more I give thanks to God for my parents Everyday of my life Keep the faith, keep the distance Friendly at arm's length, for instance Flow together like brothers and sisters And sometimes, keep distance like strangers God is alive, he's the source of my life When things are tough, my God is enough When things make no sense, I won't despair My God is alive, he's the source of my life I'll keep alive when bad times arrive My God is good, He keeps my hope alive. © el-iyanu 4/11/21

Had to tell myself I try my best Never push to try to come first I think I have issues with authority I do my thing with great audacity And I try with integrity I know I can do better Dressing fine doesn't make one responsible But some people think you're more responsible And your money more edible I get these looks sometimes that get me Sometimes it bothers me Seems like they were talking about me  But their words get around me I try not to pay attention To how I feel: sensation There's this shirt with a high collar I found it in my drawer It used to me my brother's Or my other brother's Or perhaps, my father's It's sky blue in colour Fits well like a nice comment But the sleeves are short, don't comment Have to fold it Don't think anyone knows it Even if they do, it's me Check me out, I own it. I invaded someone's privacy I'm feeling defiled I said I wanted to know The person they don't show But I should have known— Secrets are deep...

Palms up to the top Bowing heads to my last minute All the pains I've done seen it Killers saying they don't mean it Palms up to the last minute Raise my voice to the last digits Ain't too big to pray Even to my last day Coming late and leaving early I do my things quite fairly Don't like to wake early You'll see me on telly Take my bread without jelly Crack the shell, fry some eggies In record time I fill my belly With a smile I hail the girlies All smiles, I hail the girlies Been in a mood since last week Was told to make a few tweaks Wish I could call in sick But I don't like being sick But it makes me seek If I'm right or wrong Can take criticism on board I felt like I was on course I can't give up now, of course But I'm counting the days over Wish it could end sooner Sort of a late bloomer Maybe that's why I wake later Few things get me up early Football and sports at its very core And with principled people to discuss I'm counting the d...

 [27/01, 7:20 PM] tokedeeliyanu.blogspot: Every day of my life, I question myself Sometimes the answer is clear Something there's nothing there To not be proud I fear But of myself I think well Some think I have no right To think as I should To act as I should But often I'm grateful For the choices I make I seem to miss out On a lot of things Sometimes I kick myself But my price is to be free [28/01, 11:46 PM] tokedeeliyanu.blogspot: They say I'm difficult Like I'm in a cult Take my case to the court Let the law run its course Beauty or barricade Take me down the drain Put me behind bars Watch my mind explore No one else can take the fall It's boring, I search for higher bars Leave you begging,  To God implore.   Last year was happy It was beautiful and it was sad One of the best Was also among the worst. I lose my temper now and then I also see the beauty there Mutter beneath my breath, Sometimes, you don't know it's there. Two men with all the qualities Th...

Counting down the hours before I leave Done working, placed it on a freeze My time will come, this I believe In God do I find relief. I wonder how the world works sometimes Perhaps if I wasn't so proud I'll be ahead some more But I value respect a lot And honour means a lot to me too I took responsibility for when I was wrong I could even write it in a song But I wonder how the world works for real How people rarely fight for truth They say we're friends but no one cares Actually some do But when it gets real, some begin to forget No one fights for you like you But why should I fight when my talent speaks? If that's not enough, what else will? Want me to beg and coddle up to the goons? I'll lose interest, it's gone too soon It's hard for me to please myself Be wanting things like this Then I get it and find some holes in it But what is real, I recognise Yea, what is real, I recognise And it's only real if it's mutual Some play games and win the battl...

Blood on my hands, but it's only mine, Scratching the tissue while the blood flows out: The scars disappear before morning comes, No, for my sake, you won't catch me mourning storms! Job done, tissue discarded, What was the issue we all regarded? Won't catch me acting all retarded; Break up the group, you're all disbanded. I hope you aren't acting clever? Before you wound yourself forever. All that I am, I gave my blood, I went through a really difficult curve, So don't play me for the fool I'm not, Before you wound yourself for nought. Pain is my only companion, Sleep is a distant friend; Don't know what to do, Just want it to end. Moving out like tidal wave, Just want it to end. Asking myself the question, Who did I offend? For this pain, I can't compare. Sometimes I ask myself, why I'm the way I am, Then someone does something, And I remember why I chose to be this way 'Times I'm quickly angry I don't like being offended Especially...

 Anatomy fever, your bone is a lever, just dey make me shiver, fever, lever, anatomy fever Anatomy fever, mo fi ikanra leave am Shiver, diva, anatomy fever, lever, leave am, I don enter free verse, anatomy fever, my glory no go re-verse, diva, singer, I don tire read am Shiver, diva, anatomy fever! © el-iyanu Anatomy and Physiology has to be one of the most difficult courses I've encountered. Just took time out to vent some after completing the course and scaling through. Had some help from Tizaa who posed the question of making a song about the course.

 Dear God, I'm swamped with emotion, I can't say a word The world is turning, faster than our eyes can see Your children are changing, right before our very eyes Nothing is hidden, social media is alive Everything is buzzing like bees in a hive But the world is in hell, and the flames are alive  I know you can see, but your children, why can't they see?  'Cause Omo, I don't understand what's going on The wrong things just keep going on and on.. © el-iyanu

I fell for you like sudden rain You went away and left me pain I'm going crazy, going insane And life will never be the same My heart is bleeding you left a stain Do you play me, I think I'm game And what is there for you to gain I have nothing more left then to say There's a crime you have to pay For the role you had to play (And a role you have to play) On your knees now down and pray To God your sins for him to waive So, come back now my heart and save For all the love I had and gave I won't be proud now I can beg For your love to see again I hope your heart I can regain For life will never be the same I hope you see now for your sake That things will never be the same For nothing in this world can make Me forget now about our love How it made me now evolve Around your sun do I revolve! © el-iyanu

In my mouth was a song Of praise to my God With thanks upon my tongue I'll come before my Lord © el-iyanu

So easily overlooked Yet full of dusty wonders At heart like gold On epidermis, rust Waiting for the one The one single act The one single drop To wipe away Years of seemingly Harmless thoughts, words and ideas Swaddled in the question Is it important? Heaven has not fallen yet So what's the fuss all about? Give me enough time Says Neglect You'll recant your words Your new mantra Will be Had I known... To your utmost peril Signed: Neglect ©Tokede Kolawole (Sir K) Art by Afonne Michael

Naso the thing go from start to ending God don finish work from start to ending You fit dey suffer but no one be sending But no be to die be the ending Man fit die but no be the ending Live to the fullest my guy We gas to die empty, Remember, We gas to die empty. © el-iyanu

(Don't Want To See You) Don't call me, I don't want to see you Yesterday you called, but I let it drop Nine times you called, nine times I ignored Was at a meeting, I was taking minutes But I was glad to be occupied Cause never-mind,  I didn't want to talk to you You always take, you hardly give. I knew for a fact that you wanted me Again to help you with something— Didn't have to know what, That's just how you roll, And life is like fishroll. But I have my own things to solve And my own life to live I wasn't born for you to live, I'm a grown man, I'm not a child. Don't mistake my silence cause I'm not wild I opened a gate, you shoved it wide I learned my lessons like a flash card. There's a fear that perhaps I'm proud That what goes around may come around That perhaps, I block my blessings But with you, I learned hard lessons. You said you don't like being a bother Well, you are. It's time to put that into practice, Don't...

BULLETPROOF VERSE 3 Kante: You're so cold, but now I know And you try to help, that I know I'll pick up the pieces and grow But up to you, I won't show If you're ready, you'll come home From east or west or where you roamed I'll take a vacation; travel to Rome Didn't do all that for you to love Did it for you because I loved But now, for me to prove my worth? If you're in love, you'll show up Please don't tell me to shut up You left me, but like yeast, I'll come up People keep asking me: what's up But I just want them to shut up! I'm dealing with things I never thought, Don't forget we never fought. Shore-Nice:  You make me happy  And you make me sad — all at once! Memories with you are bittersweet all together! You are just like the devil  You give me little and you take much  You rekindle my little heart with love  Just for you to shatter my world  You came to my life for a little while; It felt like heaven Only for you to give ...

BULLETPROOF (VERSE 2) Vashti: Why? Our time together was a part to play Us being apart didn't start today Being with you was the price I paid And you helped me to stand again I was low, but all the while I watched Saw you fall, even with how I was I won't deny, my heart was touched But I had to leave 'cause I felt rushed I didn't want some stories that touch I'm sorry for how I left you, Saw you bear the ridicule too But coming back for me is too soon Perhaps it's time for me to help you But I won't sit around and watch a cartoon Pick up your life, don't be a buffoon A woman left you, that's simple But I love your smile, that dimple I don't want no bulletproof, I need a human Someone to hold, someone to make me smile Not someone who thinks I'm greater than Who doesn't only worship the ground I walk But can bring me down to earth You fell for me at my lowest ebb And you were for me, my greatest help But, now, it's time for you to stand...

Signed, sealed and delivered, These signs shall follow believers— They'll come in faith, love and power And the sons of men they shall deliver. But be careful of deceivers Who pretend like they're believers They come like floods, they come like rivers False faith they come to bring out And the faith of men they come to sever Signed, sealed and delivered, These signs shall follow believers— They'll come in faith, in love and power And the sons of men they shall deliver. Oh, be careful of false believers Agents of darkness, they're deceivers False faith they come to bring out And false praise they come to sing out Signed, sealed and delivered, These signs shall follow believers— They'll come in faith, in love and power And the sons of men they shall deliver. Blessed are those who pass through fire In the hell, God will give them water They'll come out with power And elevate even higher.. © el-iyanu

  Tell me sweet junk and blow my mind It's a treasure I hope to find Can hunt for it while blind To savour the thrill of the find O! Tell me again some sweet junk! But in life, I talk about boundaries, To know the lines that we can't cross People may be helpful, but for real, Their silence doesn't mean feel free! Remind me again some sweet junk, All those whispered nonsense we can't forget The love that friendship begets And a life without any regrets But we draw the lines at boundaries Lest we put a strain on friendship A long way from the trenches But at a point, elastic stops stretching But whisper again some sweet junk Let me again meditate like a monk On these words that remain like skunk's, O, remind me again some sweet junk! © el-iyanu This write is actually a combination of two topics threaded into one. For me personally, I'm a huge fan of boundaries, as much as I love freedom in relations, but I expect people to know their bounds. The subjec...

By Shalom-Paul Onadipe   I feel my heart slitting into parts  these diverse emotional scars not knowing where my heart lies, I feel like a lost art! not knowing who I want to  express my love to anymore I feel like a total stranger  when it comes to love  somedays I'm an expert  other days I'm just a big bag of flaws. I'm probably lying to myself  about being genuinely loved because love is not accidental love is dynamic  it comes and goes, leaving stories which becomes memories, memories which may turn to scars.. we are all slaves to love at one point we try to please one and others greedy and insatiable as we are we all try to give a little extra when it comes to love  a strange feeling which has come to stay within us of happiness complimenting pain and sorrow. what is love without the pain and hurt? too much love but no one to give it to do we ever give enough? © Shore-Nice, February, 2022. In this piece, the author asks cruci...

Shore-Nice:   What do I have to offer? Remind me my purpose once more. The moment I served my purpose, After trusting me to keep you safe  You counted on me for protection  But now I've lost my value  And you aren't there to remind me of my past days of glory.. Those moments when your words  of encourgement meant a lot— You might see it as Falling Glory, But to me those are moments I confide into  when I'm weak to keep me strong and moving; I found you wanting when I needed you most  I still carry those bullet holes for your sake, Where I took the bullets in your place. Kante: Easy come, easy go I fell so hard and yet you go What I felt for you, you know Eating deep my heart and soul But I was a tool and not a man An umbrella for when you stand A parachute for you to land But you left me in the sand You keep messing with my glands I looked forward to the day When I'd hold you in my hands But I saw you in another man's arms And I had no words to say I t...

Iyanu: Beauty or barricade? It's all in the mind. All the negativity Think on it, An epiphany— All the hurts, Just a frame To hold your pain And make known Your own name. Beauty or barricade? It's all in the mind; A prison cell Or a painter's dream? Kola: Beauty and the beast called barricade: Looking out through my soul's window. At first I couldn't see beyond the barricade. Like a beam it filled my vision, Despair came visiting Like the unwanted guest it is, It messed up my psyche, Then...  I looked beyond the barricade, To the greenery of the scenery, The beauty of freedom, I said to myself: It's all in my mind. "Mind over matter," "Mind over matter."  The mantra running through my head, The beauty or the barricade... Tokede Kola x Iyanu, 30th January, 2022.